LOST IN THE ATLANTIC

Ever feel like you have been dropped in the middle of the Atlantic by the backside of a carrier pigeon?

Well, that's how I feel sometimes. My legs kicking beneath the cold water, my arms moving back and forth like the wet wings of a fallen bird, while the warm sun beats down on my head. I look to the north and see clouds, I glance to the south and see no land. I yell for someone, for anybody but still not a soul insight. 

I hold on to the hope that at any moment a ship could come by and pull me from this water, so I keep kicking. Because I choose to hold on. I choose to wait for the ship I can not see.

I am kicking away when fear begins to set in and what is soon to follow is hours of tormenting shadows of doubt that take shape of sharks beneath me. Do I keep kicking or should I remain still is the question that plays on repeat.

 The minutes go by, so do the days and yet I am still waiting for some kind of change. Maybe I can catch the current and head in a new direction. Maybe this thirst will be quenched with the clouds swiftly coming in from the north. Hold on, help is coming.

The hardest moments come at night when its just the stillness of the water, the stars above, what swims beneath me, the vast silence, and growing noise in my mind.  
My thoughts are consumed with what will come when the sun returns again tomorrow. I am overwhelmed by what challenges I will again be faced with. 

A person doesn't know what they are truly made of until they are dropped into a life altering situation.
Its when we find out if we are built to survive or believe the lie that its time to die and just let circumstance have its way. 

I have always been a survivor and I will not let shadows of doubt consume me. I will keep fighting and holding on to hope for my ship, for my rescue...

Psalm 144:7 amp 
Stretch forth Your hand from above; rescue me and deliver out of great waters, from the hand of the hostile enemies.

Ezekiel 34:12 amp
As a shepherd seeks out his sheep in the day that he is among his flock that are scattered, so will I seek out My sheep; and I will rescue them out of all places where they have been scattered in the day of clouds and thick darkness.